where i am now

Time check: 5PM. I am stuck in Naga Airport for a little over 2 hours and I blame everything to PAL express. If there is one thing that I am proud about the flag carrier of the Philippines apart from it being the first airline in Asia, it’s their pilots who fly planes like they fly kites: precision and instinct. All other aspects of air-based transportation service, this airline greatly fails expectations. If I were to estimate the duration of time I have wasted on transportation ports for this trip alone, I am pegging it at 8 hours (that is a kind estimate, mind you) and 8 hours of not having any compelling distraction to my thought stream can translate to 6 volumes of hard-bound novels that can rival Twilight's popularity. Mental torture. But to be clear, Camarines Sur was kind to me. I enjoyed every bit of my stay here which I plan to capture in a different post. It just so happened that I have left so many unsettled things back home and I need to accomplish them before time becomes the usual tyrant again. At this point, I just can't wait for Manila landing. 

I want to go home.

Life has been very VERY crazy lately and by crazy, I meant the good kind. The kind of crazy that catches you off-guard, rips your insides apart, sutures them back and puts your life back in place as if nothing chaotic happened. The life-changing kind of crazy. Right now, I am standing in front of perhaps the most massive fork in my own life road: to travel or to study. I got the opportunity to turn my wanderlust into a profession. I am being invited to become a full-fledged everywhereist and be able to travel the world under the condition that I will get to write solely about travel, sustain website traffic and meet monthly article quotas. I also got an opportunity to study again in a school that I really like with the terms I am comfortable with. Knowing that the decision is mine to make is both a blessing and a burden. I have never been used to things spectacularly going my way and my decision-making skills are paralyzed by how fast events are transpiring.

I guess I want to go home because home reminds me of all things familiar. It is the place that will continue to remain the same regardless of my countless attempts to change and reinvent myself. I want to go home because I want to be conscious of how far I've come. It was never easy being this close to the goals I have set for myself and boy, do I feel so divine. I am inching to plant my feet back home because whatever road I choose to take would mean that I have very little time to spend in Manila.

Big things are bound to happen this year and my fear is of the hopeful kind. I am journeying alone again and will continue to explore the meaning of a female in-transit. Where I am now is a mere snapshot of where I am bound to go. I will go places.

But for now, Manila, I can't wait.

the universe said so

it will all float on okay

we are waves

The office announced a 5-day mandatory work leave different from the week-long office shut-down we annually have. For some weird reason, they just want people out of the office and go on vacations which I think is the greatest corporate plan ever as the heat is just insane! I just wish they announced it sooner so I could have booked flights MILES AWAY from Manila. Ang init dito, men. Hindi na nakakatuwa!  

So what do you do with a 5-day surprise mandatory work leave at a time when it's 36 degrees outside? You run to the beach, of course. And go surfing. With your younger brothers. Who get so much better than you  in a skill you learned first. Dayumm.  

today x future: what lies ahead as told by tarot cards

http://www.hauntedhouseyork.co.uk/eye-of-newt/cards/

My need for some clear life direction made me do this. I went to a tarot card reading session to get confirmation if all of the craziness at this point of my life will be worth it and bear something significant in the future. During our book club meeting, Vanna referred me to a tarot card reader who does free reading every Thursday in Gayuma ni Maria and I got to convince an officemate and a friend to go there last week because it would look too desperate if I went there alone eh. It's actually my first time to get a tarot reading although I went to a couple of fortune tellers before and they told me petty stuff about my future (like the people I am likely to date etc...) I was bummed about how shallow those previous experiences were so I really had my hopes up for this particular fortune-telling shiz. After sitting with Marvin (the tarot-reading guy), I have to say that I am renewed. My MIND was BLOWN men! The experience was just so surreal that it feels like this guy knows me and has stalked my facebook profile prior to meeting me last week. His reading was just spot on and I am seriously considering it as one of my guidelines when it comes to living my life from this point onward.

OPS go to Subic - a sorority adventure

I was in Subic with my OPS friends over the weekend to primarily talk about ze wedding of the century. Naks! This wedding is a first in Omega Pi Sigma history and it sure deserves our utmost attention and support as early as now. It was Trixie who, spur-of-the-moment, decided to take us to Subic even if she wasn't very familiar on how to get there. Shame on me because I'm like an adopted daughter of that place and I wasn't able to help much in the navigation part of this road trip which is like a very important aspect of any kind of road trip if you know what I mean. Needless to say, we got lost - countless of times that we had more to talk about while on the road than in the places we intended to go.

just keep swimming

what our weekends look like

bucketlist: UN publication

walking on a dream: first EVER UN publication